"Hasheee? Poop!" beautiful words from a one year old

Oh My God! Monday was a normal early day. I got up early to go to lab. When I got to my classroom I sat down and reached into my backpack to get my lab manual, but before I could get my book out I looked down at the strap of my bag and there was a HUGE spider. This was the biggest spider I have ever seen! At least a 2 inch diameter! I freaked out!! I stood up really fast and then it started moving. Thank the lord for my very brave lab partner, Suzie, because she got a cup and took it outside. That was one lucky spider because if it were my choice I would have killed it! ugghhh *shivering and checking floor around me* The thing that freaks me out is that I had that bag around me and that spider was on it.

Saturday I'm going clubbing. Misty and some of my other friends are going to Celebrity and Masque; These are gay clubs (her cousin is gay so he is taking us). I'm kinda nervous, but she reassured me that I would have a blast. She said that there are a lot of people that dress in drag, and I would laugh my butt off at some of the outfits. She also said that towards the end of the night they don't care who they kiss (XY or XX), so I have to be on alert!

$ 2.80... GOOD LORD that's a lot of money!!

Today is a peaceful, no kids yelling, getting homework done kind of day. Just as I had planned this weekend is very nice.

Yesterday I had a b-day party at my aunt Joanie's house. My aunt Sue decorated my cake for me. I never knew how good she was, and I believe that she could be a professional cake decorator. I got some money but on the way home I spent half of it on gas. It was $2.80 last night and I have something to say about that. OK... I know when Katrina hit the gas was ridiculously high and I can see why since it did destroy some refineries, but last night this hurricane hadn't even struck land and the gas went up 20+ cents. If this hurricane did cause any problems with oil production then wouldn't we see the effects a few weeks from now??

I had many things to say when I started this post, but then I started listening to music and I lost all train of thought, so when I decide to remember I will write again.

Name this song:
" I think I can't... I think I can't, but I think you can I think you can."
" Never underestimate my Jesus, your telling me there's no hope I'm telling you your wrong, Never underestimate my Jesus but when the world around you crumbles you will be strong..."

I love that song, at the end he sing rather high and he sounds so sexy!

Well I'm going to go get a coffee with my mom and brother. Then I have to clean my room; I'm to the point of where there are paths through the clothes that I have to walk in. I'm such a procrastinator! Adios

Ramblings while at School

I'm at school right now. :( I've been here since 8:00 AM and I wont be leaving until around 8:00 PM. I had class from 8:30 until 12:15. I presented a group presentation (well it was suppose to be a group project but I did 85% of it myself) and I did really well. Thanks Sarah! But right now I'm in the library waiting to meet with my EDL 204 group, and while I've been waiting I have been catching up on my homework.

I want to go to the Haunted Trail do you want to go this weekend or next?

Yum I want Chinese food and a Rasberry White Chocolate Mocha; not necessarily together but sometime.

I'm looking forward to this week of tv; Lost, Survivor, and CSI

I had a great weekend! Thank you. Lets do it again soon.

I'm 19...I feel so different

Today is my birthday...and my grandma's... and Elisabeth's... and James'... and two of my friends from school... and Jackie's... and I think that's all. It has sucked so far all I've been doing is cleaning and cooking. yeahness! This is my last year in the teens, and I'm glad.

I want a Frozen Rasberry White Chocolate Mocha with double the coffee! yum~yum! I also want to go to the Haunted Trail or rather The Land of Illusions. Why would they change the name? I guess because they have more than the Haunted Trail, now they have 3 more adventures. I also want to go to the movies and shopping and the Rennissance Festivel.

This week of school really sucked! I have two group projects and both of my groups really suck. I have to do all the work. That really sucks!

Well I need to go I have to get in the shower and finish cooking.

What I don't have PayPal or an account with EBay

I suppose I have paypal and didn't know it. Kinda worries me still.

"We recently noticed an attempt to log in to your Paypal account from a foreign Ip address and we have reason to believe that your account was used by a third party without you authorization. Respond to this message if you have logged onto Paypal from a new computer while on vacation. If not then we have no other choice but to suspened your account until future notice.

If I were...

If I were a month, I'd be: October (the leaves and dry air)
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Friday
If I were a time of day, I'd be: 8:00 AM (no ones out at that time)
I were a planet, I'd be: Venus, I like rings
If I were a sea animal, I'd be: a sponge
If I were a direction, I'd be: NWN,North West North
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: a porch swing
If I were a sin, I'd be: endulgence
If I were a historical figure, I'd be: Lincoln gotta love the hat
If I were a liquid, I'd be: H2O
If I were a tree, I'd be a: a very tall tree with flowers or fruit
If I were a bird, I'd be a: Pheonix
If I were a tool, I'd be: Key to unlock your...
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: Daisy/Fern
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: Windy and myseterious
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be a: mermaid
If I were an animal, I'd be a: a worm
If I were an element, I'd be: silver
If I were a book, I'd be: Fairy Tales
If I were a food, I'd be: Chili or chicken
If I were a place, I'd be:Frankenmuth, Michigan
If I were a material, I'd be: Silk
If I were a taste, I'd be: sweet and sour
f I were a scent, I'd be: roses
If I were a word, I'd be: PNEUMONO­ULTRA­MICRO­SCOPIC­SILICO­VOLCANO­CONIOSIS (cancer but very long)
If I were an object, I'd be the: moon
If I were a body part, I'd be:eyes
If I were a facial expression, I'd be: surprised
If I were a cartoon character, I'd be: Daria
If I were a shape, I'd be: a star
If I were a number, I'd be: Pi, never ending

"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"

I feel alone. It's probably because I am alone most of the time. The horrible part is that most of the time I choose to be alone; when I stay in the basement to get away from everyone else. At this point in my life there aren't many things I can look back on and be completely happy with.

I have a horrible attitude which makes it hard for people to totally get along with me. I'm afraid to lose everything. My worst flaw is my stubbornness. I know I'm very stubborn and this is one of my downfalls, but once my stubbornness kicks in I can't remember to keep control of myself.

Control... I believe control is my biggest fear. I am afraid that I will loose control of my life. If I lost control of anything I'm not sure I could handle it. I like to have control over everything gin my life; that's why I get car sick when I'm a passenger in a car or when something doesn't happen the way I want it to. I even try to control people around me hoping that if everything goes the way I want it then my life would be easier, but in reality it makes things harder because I hurt people around me and I make my problems theirs.

Why am I so controlling? What is my problem? Why do I hurt those I love? Why am I afraid to take chances? Why do I have to feel superior to everyone? Why does my life suck? What am I suppose to do now?

I understand it's my fault

The many things on my mind

I haven't written in a very long time... but that's ok I'm here now.

Thursday after class I had to meet with my prof. Me and three other girls conferenced with him at the same time. He is so awful. I told him that I had read the whole diary, so he decided to pick one kid out and have me talk about that kids problems. I read the diary three weeks ago and I couldn't remember all the details of the child he choose, and neither could the other three girls, so he decided that we all needed to look over the book again. He did ask a lot of questions about the text book and I knew most of the answers. I wish that he could be normal.

Today has been boring. I've been catching up on my homework. I also started a "diet". Not a known diet, rather a diet that I made up. I'm not going to deprive myself of anything I want but I'm not going to eat a lot of it either. My biggest problem is at night when I get in a snacking mood and the exercising.

tomorrow in Math I have my first test. I'm kind of nervous but I should do well. I hate only having one class a week because I never remember anything that we have went over. I do like my prof she is down to earth and funny. After class I'm going to my sisters game.

Next Saturday my Aunt Missy is having a party and she invited me and anyone I wanted to come. It's to celebrate Michael Jackson. I don't like MJ and I think he should have been guilty for something (like child endangering for dangling his baby off a balcony). I don't really want to go but I told her I would. There's going to be younger people there that went to MUM so maybe I will know someone.

I need to schedule the Praxis but I'm scared of it! I think I'll do one part at a time.

well I'm done for now. Back to studying.
I can't type with these nails on!