Whew!

This weekend was a really long one. Lauren's graduation party was this weekend, so I helped my parents prepare for the party. I had lots of fun. I played three games of volleyball, played in the pool, and talked to my family. I ended up getting sun burned. It's not an oww that hurts burn, but rather a hah I will be tan in a few days kind of burn.

This week I only have to work today. It's going to be a long day. I hope too many people aren't calling me on the phone and cussing at me. Great the phone is ringing... Regina my boss answered, so far so good.

My dad made an offer on 30+ acres of land last week. He is supposed to be contacted this week to see if we get it or not. The land is so pretty. There is a stream that cuts through the front, we will have to build a bridge to get across. There is enough room for a pond and to ride our four wheelers. My dad said that if he got the land he would sell his Harley. "They are too dangerous. I don't want to get killed right in the middle of a big change and leave your mother alone to handle it." I thought it was cute...

Well I better get back to work. Not that there is a lot to do.

What else can I say?

I haven't written in a while. I want to write but I am not sure what to write or I suppose I'm not sure of how to go about writing what I am truly feeling.

I check on my blog often. I come to visit and re-read things I wrote in my past, I check to see if I have comments, but most of the time I stare at the screen wanting so badly to spill my secrets and deep feelings. I never do.

Sometimes I check on my blog to see if anything new has been written, not necessarily comments but posts. I know there will be nothing but I check often... daily. Weird...Well, I know I am...

Lately, I have been disappointed in people. It's not necessarily their fault either. I just don't feel like I have the support I want and need. I always try to support people. And if I believe they are doing the wrong thing I try to give my input. I always welcome input. I may not listen or may get a little mad at first but in the end I always appreciate it. Mostly because people think differently, they may see a possible outcome that you did not. If they support what you are doing then they can make you feel more comfortable about your decisions. I suppose that's why I'm disappointed because I don't feel comfortable.

An OMG Moment!

Final Grades were posted today. I was nervous. I got all A's; that's a 3.86.
Yah Buddy!

####Ashley's####Life####

Lately I have felt that I have a void in my life. Like I'm not complete. I'm not sure what to do with this void. I have tried to feel it with many things: family, friends, food, school; but none work. In respect I feel like a failure. Being a "failure" doesn't make me depressed or angry like you would assume, but mostly I feel on edge and unsettled.

I feel like I have no direction in my life. One day I want this and the next something totally opposite, and each day I feel totally content with my decisions. I suppose you can just call me a girl or immature.