i Pod...

I told my mom not to get me one, but she did and I'm glad because it is way awesome! I'm going to take it everywere.

Spiraled Crap on a Stick Fried

There aren't very many instances that I have to brag about me or to have my family brag about me, and when I finally have a great reason to look for adornment there is none. This semester I received a 3.70 GPA; I had the final grades of 3-A's and 1-B. Not even in High School, or ever, did I get these kind of grades. I was ecstatic! I finally got to brag about my good grades, instead of Lauren taking all the glory.

When I first learned of my good grades everyone was sleeping, so I printed a sheet off, wrote a note to my mom, and laid it across her purse so she couldn't miss it. The next morning I woke up for work and as I was leaving I saw the note and there was no response. I was slightly upset, so on my home from work I called my mom and she said she had seen it and she was happy for me. She did congratulate me but, according to me, not enough. I was way more excited than she was. She had always wanted me to get good grades, and now that I had finally done it she wasn't that excited. And above all I had received my good grades at college level! Out of my whole family Lauren was the most excited for me, and she even offered to take me shopping and to buy me lunch. If it wasn't for her...

Today has been a sucky day! I got up at 9:30 to help my mom clean and cook, but the day didn't turn out that way. My mom defiantly turns psycho around kids and yet she wants to get another one. Whatever!

I was told yesterday to do laundry, so when I got home from work that's what I did. In all I washed, dried, and folded three loads of laundry, and there were still two left to do. In my mothers eyes I did nothing because the laundry wasn't completely finished, so today I woke up to start the rest of the laundry, but that wasn't good enough because Lauren had been up since 8:30 cleaning the whole upstairs. Lauren is always better at everything. She is my mother's perfect child and in return Lauren is able to do whatever she wants.

I'm not the child that sneaks people into the house at 1:00 AM to drink and play pool, I'm not the child that is so dependent on my parents that they have to by my gas and support my weekly "fun time", and I'm most certainly not the child that smokes pot and sneaks friends over to the camp fire to drink and vandalize other peoples properties. And I'm also not the child that is the favorite, and in order to be the favorite I guess I will have to start smoking pot, drinking on a regular basis, and mooching money from everyone that has the breath of life. I'm not perfect but I do deserve more than what has been dealt.

Right now I'm at the lowest I've ever been! And I wish it would end!

I haven't told Joanie

I got a new job! yayness! I'm now going to be working in the student services office in johnston hall. My boss Regina Williams is way awesome. I think the work atmosphere will be way better than at Krogers, so hopefully I will enjoy my job and look forward to going to work everyday. I will be responsible for is answering three telephone lines, scheduling appointments, mail, helping students, and any odd jobs that the advisors want me to do. The only thing I'm nervous about is trying to remember all the advisors names and answering and transferring phone calls. I never have to work the weekends or holidays and my requested hours are Tues, Thurs, and Fri 12-7.

I haven't told Joanie and I'm quite scared. Hopefully she wont kill me! I will miss seeing kaitlynn all the time.

This weekend, Sat night or Sun, I'm planning on getting everyone together to play cards. I'm going to make sure Ben isn't there so the noise will be minimal. I hope everyone can make it because I need to have a day of relaxing family time. All of my exams have taken a toll on my stress level, but I'm sure you understand completely.

A little early bit all the same

In the year I resolve to: Start smuggling contraband in baby diapers. Get your resolution here

It is almost gone!

That is the stress! I have completed my term paper, taken my science exam, and met with Greeson. The only thing left is to take my math exam which shouldn't be too hard. I can't wait until it is all done because then I can read PC Cast and Card over break.

Misty called me and according to her she is having the worst time of her life latley. I'm dtarting to become immune to her crying, self pitty, and arrogance. I just want to tell her "If something or someone in your life is making you so unhappy then you should get rid of that person or item because I'm getting sick of listening to your crap!" That would feel awesome! hehe!

Ever since I stayed at Linda's house I have been itching like crazy, and today when I was in the shower i noticed that I have a rash all over myself. I'm not totally sure if it is a rash because it is way weird. It is like blood red dots allover. At first glance they could be mistaken for a scabby looking scratch. Hopefully it's nothing too serious!

Today I applyed for a student visa card. I don't think I will get approved but at least I'm trying. "No credit is worse than bad credit".

I'm officially sick. I haven't been bad-sick since I worked at Krogers almost ten months ago. I have a deep hoarse cough. Everytime I do cough I can feel all the veins in my body tighten and my head throb. Most of the time I'm thankful for not passing out or peeing my pants!

The other day I sent three e-mails to smilingsarah@gmail.com. hehe. smiling sarah probably thinks I'm mental, and she replyed to all three saying "I don't know you" "you have the wrong e-mail" "stop sending e-mails to me I don't know you". It was pretty funny!

Well I'm done rambling! It feels good to communicate rather than studying and writing reports! Love ya AShes

"You're my dirty little secret, dirty little secret"

I can finally relax and sleep in my own bed! Nothing better than that!

I loved Narnia. It was funny and exciting! I'm going to put all seven books on my to do list; along with Card and the two books for Greeson.

I'm glad I have my Christmas shopping completed because I'm out of money and mostly because I went by the Dayton Mall and the parking lot was way full.

Did you know that Mountain Dew has vegtable oil in it?

I have to do a rebate for my sis; she got her laptop while they were on sale for the holidays!

Thanks for reading my random thoughts! Lov ya!

We Got Your Christmas Present!

Last night I got trapped at Misty's house because of the ice. We were playing cards until about 11 and didn't even notice that the rain had turned to ice. She had her home and Garden party also. My mom and I bought some things, and we also got talked into having our own party. January 14th @ 5:00 PM. So I expect to see you there!

I want to go shopping! I need to finish buying for my sister and brother. My mom and I did finish your present...well except for the socks. hehe.

Well I need to call Joanie back (she wanted to know if her classes were canceled).
*~bye-bye~*

I'm so excited about Christmas! I can't remember ever being this excited! I guess it doesn' t take much with school, babysitting, and homework usually taking up all of my time. I guess that's why I'm so excited the break in school work!

Today I was checking my yahoo e-mail and I got a virus! I didn't get a virus, because I didn't open it, but I still received one. It was called:
?something?@rocker with the Subject heading: change of password. Beware! I can' t remember the full name because all I was thinking about was deleting it.

Today I am having a good day, but there is a lot of homework I need to get done. I have to meet with Greeson tomarrow before class, and I'm not looking forward to it. I have to write a letter to him explaning what grade I deserve and why, I also have to catch up on some reading, and work on my timeline.

Saturday I am going to Misty's mom's house for a home decoration party at 5:30. If you want to come just call me. I seen a book about the party and it has a lot of cute things in it. Pictures, candles, decorations and so forth.

Well I better get working on my homework yayness. Love

HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

Yum Yum mashed potatoes and ham here I come!

"Here's forty and last week I gave you sixty so now I'm done right?"

My mom and dad went to Tennessee for the weekend, so my parents left me "in charge" of Ben and of course he's being a big pimply butt. He asked over two friends one of which is Taylor and I dislike Taylor with a Godly passion. Whenever my brother is around his friends he has to show off and be annoying and not listen, but I have been keeping him under control by saying " I'm going to call mom and tell her" or "I'm calling grandma or Joanie to come and get you and then your friends will have to leave", but bye threatening him it is making me feel like an uncool "tattle teller".

I started my Christmas shopping already and it felt very weird Christmas shopping before Thanksgiving. I bought my dad a flannel Coat and Misty a purse.

I lent Misty money, $120.00, and she has been paying me periodically out of her checks. Two weeks ago she gave me $60 and today she gave me $40, so I have gotten back $100, and she says well I have you all paid back. I was mad and gave her a look. She said "what? Is that not all of it" and I said "well you told me that you'd pay me $110." She said ok and that she will give me $10 next week. Then today she said she would by my dad's gift so I could use her discount which would save me $3. I said ok but all I have is a $20 so do you have three ones? She said after I pay I will, but she never gave them to me, and I didn't ask. I should have never let her barrow the money and not only that she makes me drive everywhere. So my lesson learnt is DONT LET YOUR FRIENDS BORROW MONEY!

3 Days, 1 Hour, 13 Minutes, and 50 seconds

There's only four more days until I get to see HP&GOF! I hope will be able to get tickets. I'm thinking that I may go up Friday to get the tickets. Here are the show times for Saturday. I was thinking 2:50 or 3:20 and time the movie is over we will be able to eat. If you think earlier or later then comment! I can't wait.

Harry Potter and the Goblet of FireRated (PG-13) • 2 hrs. 30 min.
BUY TICKETS - 10:20am, 11:20am, 11:50am, 12:50pm, 1:50pm, 2:50pm, 3:20pm, 3:20pm, 4:20pm, 5:20pm, 6:20pm, 7:00pm, 8:00pm, 9:00pm, 10:00pm, 10:40pm

Well let me know and I will go buy the tickets early, so we can hopefully get in to see it!

My dream

I had the most realistic and horrible dream last night!

i dremt that I was still in High School, but my school was mostly made up of black people and the parking lot was huge and full. I had a brand new car and I kept driving around trying to find a parking spot. I finally found one and parked. As I was walking into the school I saw a car full of my new black friends and we decided to skip school and go back to my house. As we pulled into my subdivision we noticed that all the buildings where wrecked. It looked like a tornado had went through. We kept going straight down the street to look at the houses, and I looked over at my house and it looked fine. I had such a feeling of relief! When we were done looking at all the houses we made our way to my house. We pulled up into the second driveway and that's when I noticed that the whole back and far side of my house was missing and everything looked like it had been burnt in a big fire. I got out of my car to look closer. I could see the basement, ground floor, and second floor all at once, because the floor had been burnt away. I was so upset! Then I saw my dad's car in the driveway and I just knew that he had been in the house and was dead. I knew that he was in the basement because he was going to fix a leak in the celing and the reason he had been home and we fixing that leak was because of me. I was the reason he was dead.

That was one of the most real dreams I've ever had. I know I put all the details in, but all the details where so important to the interprtation of the dream. looking back I can see why all the different aspects where there. All the students where black because of my recent visit to the Freedom Center and because on facebook last night I was looking at my friends pictures and all of her friends where black. I dremt I had a new car because my mamaw got a new car yesterday and I got to ride in it. The tornado was there because when I was staying at my aunts house the wind was blowing very hard and I was paranoid about a tornado coming. My dad was home and in the basement because yesterday before I went to bed my dad told me he was going to be in the basement fixing the leak and for me to keep my door unlocked. I thought that was pretty weird!

Well I'm done for now! Love ya

R.A.B. took it!

Hello Earthlings!

I'm much excited there's less than one week until Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire comes to theaters! yayness! As you know I am a bit obsessive with Harry Potter. Ohh and guess what I think I know who R.A.B. is. He was the mystery person in book six! I think it is Sirus Blacks brother, but that concerns me because the Black's are known as a dark family. I wonder if he will be an obstacle or a friend? I can' wait!

I would have gone with you to the coffee shop, I wanted to, but I am tired, broke, and have no gas. I will go with you next time there is a performance. Well I hope you had a great time anyways! I Love You! See ya Tuesday or before!

Without further ado

I'm an absolute genius, but not soon enough. hehe! I finally fixed my internet connection after about two weeks without it. I had to tear my whole computer apart and find a new PCI slot in the mother board that wasn't being used. The whole problem was with the PCI slot that I had it in decided to stop working for unknown reasons. But anywho I'm back!!!

I have so much homework that I was planning on making a dent in today but it didn't happen. I only finished half of my lesson plan for Science. I did finish my book Piaget Primer. It is pretty good if your a parent, teacher, or work with children, because it explains why children act the way they do and what you can expect from certain aged children.

Well I'm going to watch this show on tv about the end of the world. How exciting and depressing! Adios Amigo! Love ya!

Pot heads suck!

Hey! I haven't posted in a while, well that's because Misty seems to think that I need to spend all of my free time with her, and frankly I am tired of it. I have spent to much time with her and I'm done for a very long time, so in the chance that Misty calls you and is wondering were I'm at tell her that I'm swamped with homework and projects!

I had fun at the Halloween party, but we left early because some punk kid brought pot, and then he left and came back with more stuff. I'm not sure what but I think they had zany bars, cocaine, and alcohol. I spent so much time, money, and energy into that party then I had to leave at 9:00 because of punks.

I really miss you! we need to get together this week or weekend!

I'm hungry! Hey I still have those graham cracker things you gave me; I bet they are really stale! hehe:)

Well I'm at school and I need to get to class, so I will tak to ya later! Love ya

Questionnaire about me!

1. FIRST NAME
Ashley

2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
No

3. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Sometimes and it's the same wish every time

4. WHICH FINGER IS YOUR FAVORITE?
I could never choose

5. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
It's been a while thankfully

6. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Sometimes when I don't rush

7. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
Ham

8. ANY BAD HABITS?
Yes

9. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Actually I threw it away last week, Aqua (Barbie Girl)

10. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
I would hope yes, but I could never be sure

11. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Yes, it was about my brother

12. DO LOOKS MATTER?
No, as long as I'm treated right.

13. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
I yell or go to my room and feel sorry for myself

14. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
Joanie's or Sarah's

15. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
No, but I wish I could

16. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
My trampoline or my bike

17. WHAT CLASS IN SCHOOL DO YOU THINK IS TOTALLY USELESS?
Well it wouldn't be useless if I had another prof, Educational Psychology

18. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL?
Your reading it. Hey did I say you could?

19. ARE YOU SARCASTIC?
Yes only when trying to be funny

20. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
No and I don't want to be

21. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Umm... Conversational skills, knowledge, funny personality

22. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Ash, HASHEEEE, Ashhole

23. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP?
Never

24. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
I wear flip flops in the middle of winter, and if I do wear shoes with ties they are slip-ons

25. DO YOU THINK THAT YOU HAVE STRONG POINTS?
Everyone has their strong points

26. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Vanilla

27. WHO'S YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Sarah Jo

28. FAVORITE COLORS?
PINK and Black

29. HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
One, but it still hasn't broken the surface

30. WHO DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
My Grandfather

31. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Yes

33. LAST THING YOU ATE?
A monster cookie, they are the best

34. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
3-way with Misty and Sarah Burton

35. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Smile and teeth

36. WHAT WAS THE LAST BOOK YOU READ?
Besides mandatory books, Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince

37. HOW ARE YOU TODAY?
I'm good. I had a great time last night, so that's making my morning good.

38. FAVORITE DRINK?
H2O

39. DO YOU LOVE SOMEONE?
Yes many people: My dad, My mom, sis, bro, Sarah, Kaitlynn, Elisabeth, Emilie

40. Favorite sport?
Soccer and Softball

42. EYE COLOR?
Brown

43. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
Nope

44. SIBLINGS?
Little Sister Lauren and Little brother Ben ( he is out of control)

45. Favorite month?
Late October Early November when the trees are changing

46. FAVORITE FOOD?
Chicken and dumpling

47. LAST SHOW YOU WATCHED?
Food Network, Some cooking show

48. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Last day of school before summer break

49. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
DEFINATELY

50. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Autumn

51. HUGS OR KISSES?
Hugs of course

52. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Yes...Hehe My name is Scarlet and I am a hooker in downtown New York, so I guess you could say that I have many one night stands. If your ever in New York I stand at Central and Fifth I'll wear a flower in my hair.

I'm soo Bored!

What a time! I've been so bored lately that I decided to go with Misty and her mother to Kentucky so they can buy cheap cigs. This is against my better judgement, because all they do is argue back and forth the whole time they are around each other. At least I'm getting out of the house.

I want to go see the new movie The Fog. It has Smallville hottie Tom Welling in it. The critics rated it as a D+ so I guess I wait until it comes to video or to the dollar theater. He is just so hott and He used to be a model so...yeah.

There's 28 days until Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire comes to theaters. yayness!

I rebooted my computer last night. Now I don't know how to get the internet back on it, so if you have any suggestions. I think I'm thinking too hard about it. I was the one who did it in the first place, but when I put the wireless internet chip into my computer a ballon poped up saying " found new hardware", so that was easy.

Last night I dremt that I was a fairy. A whole bunch of my fairy friends and I were walking through a beautiful garden with hugh flowers. We decided to have a party. We were all dancing and laughing when all of a sudden a dragon on top of this mountain got mad. He started to breathe fire at us, but the fire didn't burn it tickled. The flames then turned into the flowers and we were all happy, even the dragon because we invited him to play with us. That's all he wanted in the first place because everyone thinks he is big and scary, so he has no friends.

What did you dream? Can you remember?

Well I'm going to go full around with my computer and get it back the way I want it. hopefully I can figure out the internet.

I'm singing in the Rain

My brother had his second of three surgeries yesterday. He is doing very well. The doctor let Ben keep three of the screws that we removed. I swear there is blood and bone stuck on all three of them! That's gross!

I've been very sleepy the past few days!

I'm soo upset! My computer is screwed up! It is running very very slow and I'm not sure why because I haven't used it for anything new. I only get on the internet to check my websites everyday and that's all so I couldn't have gotten a virus. But since my computer is messed up I have been using the one upstairs and it is just as bad.

Ashley

I love Her!

Isn't she darlen!

Here is my tattoo. It's nothin fancy, but it's good enough.

I love homework!

I got a tattoo. I like it much. I would post a picture, but I don't know how to get that luxury.

I have so much home work, so I need to get on it!

We need to get together because I haven't seen you (out of school) for a long while. We can try and decide our road trip.

Well Adios. Love ya!

I have a werid feeling about this, but I always do!

This morning at 8:00 AM I was supposed to take my car and get a recall fixed, but I didn't. I don't know why the Chevy dealership wanted me to bring it at 8:00, probabley because they have nothing else to do that early in the morning. I guess they thought I was crazy.

I know this is very gross and you don't want to hear about it but i'm still going to tell you. Everyday, for the past two weeks, I have been waking up with BLACK boogers and Black loogies. I'm kinda scared because I have mold in my room ( the dryer vent rusted through and is leaking on my ceiling which caused a black and brown mold to grow). My dad has been trying to fix it for months but ever finds the time. I don't know anything about mold "poisioning" so I'm not sure if thats the reason for my black "problem". I guess I'll have to check that out.

Well today you are going to see Ashley! I hope you have a great time and stay safe. I'm jealous you get to take a roadtrip without me. We will have to plan a weekend vacation this summer when we don't have any classes! Well talk at ya later.

toot-toot chica-chica toot-toot

Love ya :)


Ashley Nicole

Honestly

I want a tattoo. What do you think about that? It would be in a place that is to hide and it wouldn't be huge. I think I will get my name in pretty text and then have the "y" loop up into a heart or a flower. I think it would be cute.

Tomarrow I have to meet with Greeson. What a bore! he told me that I should meet with him more often, but I think I'll take the chance of a lower grade than to spend more time with him.

I killed a spider on my wall and its guts are still there. yuck! I have been finding lots of spiders in the basement lately, and there not small spiders there the big hairy spiders that I am very very scared of. The other day I got a shirt out of my closet and there was a big spider on it. I don't like that shirt as much anymore it brings back bad memories of hairy spiders.

Well Toots! See ya Love ya

Today I have been very mellow and quite. I'm not sure why, but it's relaxing not having to listen to myself allday.

I have tons of homework. I'm kinda upset because I wrote an e-mail to Tiemeyer and she hasn't written back and I sent it Saturday Afternoon.

I have a countdown to Harry Potter on my desktop thought it would keep me entertained. There's 38 days, 6 hours, 7 minutes and 33 seconds until the movie comes out!

Well i'm done! Toots

Questions and no answers

Do you suppose the people that make pop-up ads have pop up blockers? If they did then they wouldn't see their own advertisements, and if they don't want to see them then what makes them think we do!

What happens to dirty toilet water? Do we end up drinking it again?

I opened up all the windows in my house and I'm laying naked in the cold air...haha I'm just kidding, but why did I open all the windows? Was it to refresh the house or is it because I'm an idiot?

Some say everything you've ever spoken is still surrounding you, just not audible, so when you suddenly think of a past event is it the voices hitting against you?

How come I can learn the words to hundreds of songs but not remember information for a test?

Did you know that Alaska is the biggest state; It takes up all of Wisconsin, Illinois, Montana, Kansas, Iowa, and some of N Dakota, S Dakota, Nebraska, Colorado, Oklahoma, Texas, Georgia, and Tennessee. And I bet its mostly ice!

Why is it that there are waiting list for hybrid cars? Is there a gas and oil conspiracy?

Well if you know any of these answers fell free to comment. I bet my dad would know the answers, why is it that dads always seem to know the answers to useless information?

I skipped class today and I feel really bad about it, but I need to finish my paper. I skipped so I could work on my paper for a couple of hours without kaitlynn here. She dosn't like it when I sit on the computer and make her watch t.v. Well I better get busy! Ta-Ta:)

This Months Happenings

October 1-31: National Breast Cancer Awarness Month, so you better fill up your boobs! I'm just kidding, but it wouldn't hurt to check.

October 4: Tonight is Lauren's Senior Night for soccer. My mom and dad are going to walk her down the field. Sometimes the players brothers and sisters walk to, but I'm not sure if Ben and I have too.

October 6: It's Lauren's B-day. And My Text Analysis for EDL 204 is due.

October 8: Sarah is going to the Concert! I'm going to see if my mom will go to the coffee shop with me or maybe my family can do something like the haunted trail or a movie.

October 15: No Class Fall Midterm!! A whole Saturday to myself! Sarah is going to leave me and go to Michigan, Have lots of fun!

October 30: Daylight savings time~ extra hour of sleep!

October 31: Halloween! Offically 18 days until Harry Potter movie comes out! I know I'm addicted!

Snow...That Makes Me Think of Frankenmuth!

I had a great time last night! Masque is a great club it's super clean, classy, and inviting. There was a great atmosphere: probabley because it is a gay club were everyone is different and they don't care if you are. Misty's cousin, Michael, is so great he made me meet everyone he knew. The night went just as I expected it to and I'm glad I got to experience it. Hopefully I'll get to go back again and maybe you can come ;)

It's official Ben is addicted to porn. Last month he ran up the payper view bill to $150, and my mom found out. I figured that once he knew that my mom was on to him then he would quit but that isn't the case. He has since then been warned three times to quit ordering porn, but he just can't stop. He even orders it late on school nights.

Well I need to start on my homework. Toot-a-Loo!

What did you dream about last night?

I got my math test back... I got a B. This is better than I thought it was going to be. I hated that stupid chapter! Well It hurt my overall grade I now have a 92% in the class. This is much sad.

I have nothing in particular to talk about. Thats sad. That means nothing interesting has happened in the past few days. Something interesting should happen everyday!

I'm addicted to pac man and logic puzzles. I found Pac Man on a link @ bored.com, but I haven't found a web site that has these certain logic puzzles ( i'm not sure what they are called... there the ones your mom likes and the extra credit we got in math class), so I'm disappointed.

For the life of me I cannot remember
What made us think that we were wise and
We'd never compromise
For the life of me I cannot believe
We'd ever die for these sins
We were merely freshmen

Ahh Memories!

Well I'm not in the mood to write. more than likely you can tell with my bad sentence structures. Well I'm going to take a nap! Goodnight!

"Hasheee? Poop!" beautiful words from a one year old

Oh My God! Monday was a normal early day. I got up early to go to lab. When I got to my classroom I sat down and reached into my backpack to get my lab manual, but before I could get my book out I looked down at the strap of my bag and there was a HUGE spider. This was the biggest spider I have ever seen! At least a 2 inch diameter! I freaked out!! I stood up really fast and then it started moving. Thank the lord for my very brave lab partner, Suzie, because she got a cup and took it outside. That was one lucky spider because if it were my choice I would have killed it! ugghhh *shivering and checking floor around me* The thing that freaks me out is that I had that bag around me and that spider was on it.

Saturday I'm going clubbing. Misty and some of my other friends are going to Celebrity and Masque; These are gay clubs (her cousin is gay so he is taking us). I'm kinda nervous, but she reassured me that I would have a blast. She said that there are a lot of people that dress in drag, and I would laugh my butt off at some of the outfits. She also said that towards the end of the night they don't care who they kiss (XY or XX), so I have to be on alert!

$ 2.80... GOOD LORD that's a lot of money!!

Today is a peaceful, no kids yelling, getting homework done kind of day. Just as I had planned this weekend is very nice.

Yesterday I had a b-day party at my aunt Joanie's house. My aunt Sue decorated my cake for me. I never knew how good she was, and I believe that she could be a professional cake decorator. I got some money but on the way home I spent half of it on gas. It was $2.80 last night and I have something to say about that. OK... I know when Katrina hit the gas was ridiculously high and I can see why since it did destroy some refineries, but last night this hurricane hadn't even struck land and the gas went up 20+ cents. If this hurricane did cause any problems with oil production then wouldn't we see the effects a few weeks from now??

I had many things to say when I started this post, but then I started listening to music and I lost all train of thought, so when I decide to remember I will write again.

Name this song:
" I think I can't... I think I can't, but I think you can I think you can."
" Never underestimate my Jesus, your telling me there's no hope I'm telling you your wrong, Never underestimate my Jesus but when the world around you crumbles you will be strong..."

I love that song, at the end he sing rather high and he sounds so sexy!

Well I'm going to go get a coffee with my mom and brother. Then I have to clean my room; I'm to the point of where there are paths through the clothes that I have to walk in. I'm such a procrastinator! Adios

Ramblings while at School

I'm at school right now. :( I've been here since 8:00 AM and I wont be leaving until around 8:00 PM. I had class from 8:30 until 12:15. I presented a group presentation (well it was suppose to be a group project but I did 85% of it myself) and I did really well. Thanks Sarah! But right now I'm in the library waiting to meet with my EDL 204 group, and while I've been waiting I have been catching up on my homework.

I want to go to the Haunted Trail do you want to go this weekend or next?

Yum I want Chinese food and a Rasberry White Chocolate Mocha; not necessarily together but sometime.

I'm looking forward to this week of tv; Lost, Survivor, and CSI

I had a great weekend! Thank you. Lets do it again soon.

I'm 19...I feel so different

Today is my birthday...and my grandma's... and Elisabeth's... and James'... and two of my friends from school... and Jackie's... and I think that's all. It has sucked so far all I've been doing is cleaning and cooking. yeahness! This is my last year in the teens, and I'm glad.

I want a Frozen Rasberry White Chocolate Mocha with double the coffee! yum~yum! I also want to go to the Haunted Trail or rather The Land of Illusions. Why would they change the name? I guess because they have more than the Haunted Trail, now they have 3 more adventures. I also want to go to the movies and shopping and the Rennissance Festivel.

This week of school really sucked! I have two group projects and both of my groups really suck. I have to do all the work. That really sucks!

Well I need to go I have to get in the shower and finish cooking.

What I don't have PayPal or an account with EBay

I suppose I have paypal and didn't know it. Kinda worries me still.

"We recently noticed an attempt to log in to your Paypal account from a foreign Ip address and we have reason to believe that your account was used by a third party without you authorization. Respond to this message if you have logged onto Paypal from a new computer while on vacation. If not then we have no other choice but to suspened your account until future notice.

If I were...

If I were a month, I'd be: October (the leaves and dry air)
If I were a day of the week, I'd be: Friday
If I were a time of day, I'd be: 8:00 AM (no ones out at that time)
I were a planet, I'd be: Venus, I like rings
If I were a sea animal, I'd be: a sponge
If I were a direction, I'd be: NWN,North West North
If I were a piece of furniture, I'd be: a porch swing
If I were a sin, I'd be: endulgence
If I were a historical figure, I'd be: Lincoln gotta love the hat
If I were a liquid, I'd be: H2O
If I were a tree, I'd be a: a very tall tree with flowers or fruit
If I were a bird, I'd be a: Pheonix
If I were a tool, I'd be: Key to unlock your...
If I were a flower/plant, I'd be: Daisy/Fern
If I were a kind of weather, I'd be: Windy and myseterious
If I were a mythical creature, I'd be a: mermaid
If I were an animal, I'd be a: a worm
If I were an element, I'd be: silver
If I were a book, I'd be: Fairy Tales
If I were a food, I'd be: Chili or chicken
If I were a place, I'd be:Frankenmuth, Michigan
If I were a material, I'd be: Silk
If I were a taste, I'd be: sweet and sour
f I were a scent, I'd be: roses
If I were a word, I'd be: PNEUMONO­ULTRA­MICRO­SCOPIC­SILICO­VOLCANO­CONIOSIS (cancer but very long)
If I were an object, I'd be the: moon
If I were a body part, I'd be:eyes
If I were a facial expression, I'd be: surprised
If I were a cartoon character, I'd be: Daria
If I were a shape, I'd be: a star
If I were a number, I'd be: Pi, never ending

"Who I Am Hates Who I've Been"

I feel alone. It's probably because I am alone most of the time. The horrible part is that most of the time I choose to be alone; when I stay in the basement to get away from everyone else. At this point in my life there aren't many things I can look back on and be completely happy with.

I have a horrible attitude which makes it hard for people to totally get along with me. I'm afraid to lose everything. My worst flaw is my stubbornness. I know I'm very stubborn and this is one of my downfalls, but once my stubbornness kicks in I can't remember to keep control of myself.

Control... I believe control is my biggest fear. I am afraid that I will loose control of my life. If I lost control of anything I'm not sure I could handle it. I like to have control over everything gin my life; that's why I get car sick when I'm a passenger in a car or when something doesn't happen the way I want it to. I even try to control people around me hoping that if everything goes the way I want it then my life would be easier, but in reality it makes things harder because I hurt people around me and I make my problems theirs.

Why am I so controlling? What is my problem? Why do I hurt those I love? Why am I afraid to take chances? Why do I have to feel superior to everyone? Why does my life suck? What am I suppose to do now?

I understand it's my fault

The many things on my mind

I haven't written in a very long time... but that's ok I'm here now.

Thursday after class I had to meet with my prof. Me and three other girls conferenced with him at the same time. He is so awful. I told him that I had read the whole diary, so he decided to pick one kid out and have me talk about that kids problems. I read the diary three weeks ago and I couldn't remember all the details of the child he choose, and neither could the other three girls, so he decided that we all needed to look over the book again. He did ask a lot of questions about the text book and I knew most of the answers. I wish that he could be normal.

Today has been boring. I've been catching up on my homework. I also started a "diet". Not a known diet, rather a diet that I made up. I'm not going to deprive myself of anything I want but I'm not going to eat a lot of it either. My biggest problem is at night when I get in a snacking mood and the exercising.

tomorrow in Math I have my first test. I'm kind of nervous but I should do well. I hate only having one class a week because I never remember anything that we have went over. I do like my prof she is down to earth and funny. After class I'm going to my sisters game.

Next Saturday my Aunt Missy is having a party and she invited me and anyone I wanted to come. It's to celebrate Michael Jackson. I don't like MJ and I think he should have been guilty for something (like child endangering for dangling his baby off a balcony). I don't really want to go but I told her I would. There's going to be younger people there that went to MUM so maybe I will know someone.

I need to schedule the Praxis but I'm scared of it! I think I'll do one part at a time.

well I'm done for now. Back to studying.
I can't type with these nails on!

I wrote a paper today and oddly enough it was fun to write.

My mom can't come to the party with me, but she still wants to buy some things for her.

I have to stay after class tomarrow and meet with my professor that talks for forever. UGH

Tomarrow I have to cut grass, but I don't have to babysit!

I'm sick.

Well I'm done.

Ramblings of a College Student

I'm trilled with myself and how I've been able to keep ahead of my homework. Procrstinating is sooo not worth it. It also helps now that I have picked Early childhood education as my major becuase now i'm working towards a goal I want to accomplish, and some of the classes aren't that bad. The more I go to Greeson's class the more I hate it, i'm soo going to skip one day! I like my science and Math profs they are nice and make the subject interesting.

Are you still having that Pampered Chef party? If so where and when. I asked my mom to come if thats ok.

What a bore!

I have a Saturday class. That kinda sucks, but I'll get over it. EDL 204 is going to be hard. We also have to do that big project, and my prof told me that the syllabus is from Oxford and that the book is written by profs at oxford especially for this class. I guess everyone gets the same experience. Well I need to get to bed. Until the sun rises again.

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If you notice the blog below this you will notice that I have 9 comments; I have never had this many comments, so this arose some skepticism. After reading all of the comments I have now realized that no one is safe. Whether it's in you mail box, e-mail, or just pops up on your screen every now and then junk is impossible to escape. Well I need to get to bed I have class tomorrow.

Classes Started Today

I think our teacher is very interesting. He seems very down to earth. The one thing I'm upset with is the really annoying boy from History 111 is in our class. This kid is very rude, but he doesn't realize it. He attacks anything that he believes is untrue and he will argue his point (for way too long). I'm done

Ashley Clay ~ September 16, 1986

Your Individuality: Sun in Virgo

You were born under the sign of VIRGO and your ruling planet is Mercury, which endows you with outstanding mental qualities.

Your Sun sign is MUTABLE and this will impel you to function as a COMMUNICATOR, either in thought or action. You won't feel comfortable in a leadership position, but rather in a subordinate position or service. One of your functions is to help others to solve their problems.

Virgo is an EARTH sign and this makes you realistic, practical and concrete. You will have a strong desire to accomplish material goals and need to feel that your career or enterprises permit you to grow a little more each year.

Sarah Lewis ~ July 1, 1986

Your Individuality: Sun in Cancer

You were born under the sign of CANCER and your ruling planet is the Moon, which endows you with great sensitivity and a strong protective instinct toward your loved ones.
Your Sun sign is CARDINAL and this indicates that you were born to be a leader, either in thought or action. You are never completely satisfied in a subordinate position carrying out the ideas of others, unless they are part of your aspirations. You are comfortable working independently or occupying a leadership position.
Cancer is a WATER sign, which makes you receptive and intense. The success of your projects depends almost exclusively on your emotional state. You need the feeling of warmth and intimacy to perform adequately. You will have to control your degree of outside influence and your changeability.

Walking in my Shoes

I'm going to tell you about an event. And I'm going to tell it from my perspective.

I had just finished eating supper, so I decided to go to my room and check my mail. As I was walking down the stairs I heard the t.v. blasting and my brother yelling; he was playing video games. The closer I got to the last step the more I smelt bleach; I questioned this slightly but since I had used bleach the night before I waived it off. But I did start to become very nervous because I didn't lock my bedroom door.

As I rounded the corner into the living room I noticed that my brother had friends over and that they were acting very smug. At this point I also noticed the smell of a burnt match. I instantly knew they had been in my room because I had Lit a candle.

I walked to my room and I noticed the bleach smell becoming stronger and stronger. My heart dropped. After confirming the candle being blown out I looked more closely around. I looked over at my t.v. it had been sprayed with bleach ( heart pounding, panicking, and veins filled with adrenaline I turned to search my whole room) ... My plants ... My mirror ... My bed ... My clothes on the bed ... My COMPUTER ... My desk ... And all the things that were on the desk had been sprayed with bleach.

I ran past my brother (doing quite well not to kill him) and went to get my mother. As I ran up the stairs I couldn't help but start crying. I reached my mother. I was hoping that my mother like most "normal" mothers would help me seek my vengeance, but I was wrong. As I told her what happened she didn't seem to interested and then she did the unthinkable, she turned the situation around and blamed me. "I can't ever sit down, relax, and eat my supper can I?"......... "You should have locked your door". This made my so so so mad. I lost my temper and said "If you don't do anything about this then I WILL". She sat there and stared at the t.v.

I went back down stairs to confront my brother.
"Why did you do it?"
"Do what?"
"You know what you did, WHY?"
"You used my matches to light your candle and I only had three left."
"OMG!"

This is about the time I heard my mothers feet banging towards the basement door. She came to see my room and while looking around, murmuring to herself, she said, "get a washcloth and was it with some soap and hot water." And then left. No punishment was given.

Everything I own is now sprayed an ugly shade of white.

I have decided to seek my own vengeance. I'm going to write a letter to my mother explaining myself and also tell her all of Ben's horrible secrets. The only thing that can ruin this is if she still does nothing to him... Which seems very likely, so along with my letter I'm going to collect all the physical evidence that my brother discards in the corn growing behind our house.

Hmmm... I'm Bored

I have exactly one week of free time to myself before school starts.

Who said I could write poems

You say you love me
but how can I believe you.
You look at me with disgust
and the other two with pride.

All I can do is keep living this lie
and hope that you love me.

The things you call me keep sinking in.
misfit...lazy...bitch
And now I realize that I am all of these things.

But all I can do is keep living this lie
and hope that you love me.

Maybe one of these days
I will become your perfect little girl
Or maybe not.

All I can ask is Do you still love me?

New C.D.... $14.99
New Shoes... $9.99
Not paying Ashley to babysit two weeks in a row... Priceless, no seriously PRICELESS!

Did You Know?

I spent this last weekend all alone with my mother. This was very weird because I never spend time with her unless we are grocery shopping or cleaning.

There's only 100 days left until Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire comes out in Theater.

My Dad's Birthday is this Sunday...I need to buy him something.

My 19th Birthday is only a month away. I'm a Virgo.

We bought speakers for the computer upstairs and only one of them worked, so we took them back and bought new ones, and still only one works.

Will Smith is Hott!

I painted my brothers toenails bright pink.


I spent $2.59 on gas today.

*Mentally Exhausted*

Today I'm in a bad mood. At the beginning of the day I was looking forward to a day of shopping with my aunt and grandma.

We decided to go to Target first. I was having a great time pushing all three of the kids around by myself until we saw Grandma. Emilie decided to go with her and I took the other two to find their mother. I found Joanie and we where standing in an isle admiring lightbulbs when Grandma and Emilie came over. Both of them were gloating on the two new Barbie dolls that Grandma was going to buy Emilie. This of course upset Elisabeth and Kaitlynn, but Joanie was furious. We decided to leave.

We went across the street to TGIF for lunch. While there Grandma talked to no one, and Joanie talked to me and the kids. When we finally got our lunch Grandma starts saying to Emilie "Come sit next to me no one else likes me", "Lets not fight about stupid things", Pointing at Joanie and me..."I know you two are talking about me". At this point I was very Angry, because I wasn't talking about her. The whole time I was trying to get Joanie to let it go, and to be the mentor of two big babies. After finishing our lunch in silence we left to Sam's.

I decided to stay in the car and listen to my new c.d., My Chemical Romance, and to let my mind work through all of my thoughts.

Grandma came out first. I started to help her unload the groceries... I went to pick up some books when she ripped them out of my hand and said "Not these I bought these for those stupid kids." "Why does everyone have to tell me how to spend my money?" At this point I'm ready to explode, because she actually said infront of me "those stupid kids" and everyone knows that she is very unfair to Joanie's kids and that she gives Emilie whatever she wants. I calmly say "No one is telling you how to spend your money, but you do have to be fair with the younger grandchildren, or if you are going to buy Emilie something don' t let the other kids know. " She just gets in the car talking to herself. I get in to wait on Joanie and grandma says " I want to go home...I'm going home and staying there until I die...which better be soon"

More and more each day I see more of G-Grandma Rodefer in Grandma, and more and more each day I see more of Grandma in my Mom. OHHH I don't want to deal with this when I get older.

The only good that came from to day was My Chemical Romance c.d.

Never Been Kissed

Well, I'm gettin kinda concerned for ya. You seem to have a cyber stalker. Just keep a safe set of mind and stay smart. And if you do ever want to meet I will go with you!

This week has been as productive as all the weeks before, so in reality I haven't completed any of my goals. I have been thinking a lot about never having a boyfriend. My heart yearns to love another, but I do not believe I will anytime soon. Do you remember when you would write in a journal to your future husband? I always thought that was a good idea; you wouldn't be able to forget to tell him anything.

The ever nearer thought of school has already started to get me down. I just hate it, but I love it at the same time. I think it will be better this year than last because last year I was taking classes that had nothing to do with my chosen major.

Well I have to clean my house and then i'm going to Misty's because she is leaving for Florida Wed, so I will write at ya later.

From Yonder Window...

So last night I stayed up until 5 in the morning sitting around a campfire with my brother and his friends. I know this doesn't sound very appealing, but it actually was. I learned a lot about my brother and his friends; good and bad.

This week I've been in a sewing mood. I made a hobo bag that is made with a bright orange swirly fabric. It is very big, has a pocket, and I sewed a flower from buttons on the front. The next thing I made was another hobo bag! It is cordoroy and has buttons allover it. they are cute!

Well I'm done for now, so Write at ya later.

Check Please!

I have found my keys that have been missing for two days. It is such a relief. I hate the feeling I get when I lose something and you've looked everywhere to find it, and there's nothing else you can do. It's like your mind and heart fighting: Heart "they have to be somewhere" mind "you've look everywhere, so you should just give up and except defeat." I'm glad I found them.

I haven't written in a while and to be honest it was kinda nice; I just never have anything to talk about and sometimes I'm just to lazy to think about something to write.

Well I have to go for now I'm helping my mom babysit. Ronnie seems very interesting.

I have decided two things...

First: After I cooled off and reread what I wrote about the kids I felt ashamed and very cruel. I know that I wrote that entry in the heat of anger, and I also know that I cannot delete it because it is still "me" and my thoughts. From now on I'm going to cool off before I write then "maybe" I will think twice before I write anything that is cruel. Afterall they are kids and they are looking to me for some guidance.

Second: After 200 grueling pages of LOTR I have decided to stop reading it. It's not that it's a bad book it's just boring. I still want to know what happens but at the same time I don't want to waste my valuable time reading it either. Maybe when I get old as dirt and have a boring life I will re-read it and it may have a different effect on me.

I highlighted my hair! Harry Potter comes out Saturday! That's all for know folks!

'Ashely she took my shoes, and wont give them back...I want them back (sniffles) they are mine(crying)

These past few weeks I have just been so sick of children. I babysit two times a week and my mom babysits two times a week, so the kids are at our house the whole week and most of the time there here on the weekends. I'm mostly annoyed by the little things that they do, and not totally be their presence.

The number one reason I'm not too fond of kids right now is becase it is the summer and I want to be able to go out and have fun, but if I want to do this I have to drag around two kids. I feel like a grown adult with two children; a Soccer Mom.

I also hate the amount of money I get paid; $15 dollars a day for two kids and $10 for one kid, and most of the time I have them from 6:30 AM to 6:00 PM. Their mother is at work making at least $20/hour, so I feel that I should at least get paid what she does in one hour. Right? If it wasn't for me she would have to hire a babysitter that would want $50/ day. I'm not out to cause problems for Joanie and her reliable babysitters, so I never say anything. If I ever did get a raise I would feel horrible for taking the money. So I guess I will let her keep walking all over me.

Another thing I hate is that the kids don't listen.When they first get to the house they don't listen to me, it takes them about two hours to realize that I'm not their mother and they have to listen to me. Throughout the day Kaitlynn doesn't listen at all, but she is still young and testing her boundries. When they do start to listen the day starts to become smoother.

The last little complaint I have is how loud they are. They definatly take after their mother.

Most of the time I'm strict with them but that's the way I was brought up and that's the way I will bring my kids up. I believe that most children these days haven't had the proper guidence, which is mostly due to Parents wanting to be friends with their children, and that is a no! no! because then your kids will walk allover you with no respect.

Well i'm done venting L8R

There's not much to talk about really...

I did start to read LOTR, and so far I'm enjoying it. The movies are way different from the books. The books have a lot more details and events, which is normal when a book is turned into a movie. I always hate seeing a movie before reading a book because you know what's going to happen, and I would rather read the book and then see the movie.

I have decided not to get my hair permed but instead cut short. That will be a big change for me, most of the time my hair is very long.

Well since nothing eventful has happened in the past few weeks I'm done talking for now. Later!

I like Screamers

I've been listening to a lot of music lately. I like all genres but my favorites are punk and rock. Rock gets your heart pumping and you can't help but knock your head. When I'm in the car listening to rock I will look down at the speed-o-meter and I'll be so caught up in the music that I'll be going fifteen over. I like punk because of the in-your-face attitude and the screaming. My sis is all for punk and she goes to see a lot of local bands preform. She got to meet Hawthorne Heights before they were noticed. Thats pretty cool.

Today I'm going to go out with my friends. I haven't seen Michelle x2 in so long, well since graduation, and I believe theirs going to be that weird ackward silence. I hate that because when we were still in school we could talk for hours about anything, but now that you haven't seen them in forever theres nothing to talk about. You would think that it would be the opposite.

I think my boobs have grown, which is very weird I thought I was done maturing since I am 19.

"June 1st we are the farthest from the sun"

I have a few rules that I follow while getting dressed like: No brown and black together, try and match shoes with shirt for balance, certain necklaces and earrings are to be worn with certain hairstyles and shirts, and when wearing light colored shirts have a matching bra. This morning I got dressed and didn't realize it but broke two of my rules. I was wearing brown and black at the same time and I had a yellow bra on with a light pink shirt.

Well it's about time for me to leave so I'll talk at ya later.

Along with summer comes a time on which nothing happens, and hence I have nothing to talk (write) about. This is very sad.

The summer has defiantly turned me into a movie junkie. On part because I have no job, and have no other way to spend my time. I've been spending ten dollars a week on renting movies Via PPV of blockbuster. I am dying to go to the movies! I want to see War of the Worlds, Madagascar, Star Wars, Sisterhood of the traveling Pants, and the new scary movie Walking Dead, or something of that sort.

I did start to get things done that have been on my check list. I opened a checking account, fixed my debit card, and went shopping.

Well I'm all out. See ya later.

I feel all grown up

This week I'm house sitting for my Aunt. It feels very odd to be in a huge house all by myself. At first I was freaked out because she has animals that make noises that I'm not expecting to hear. When it was time to go to bed I checked that all the doors were locked multiple times. I kept thinking to myself "Now I know Why Joanie was so paranoid". I have decided if I ever have to live alone that I'm going to get a cat of a small dog that will keep me company.

My cousin, Emilie, and Lauren have coerced me into swimming, so I have to go for now.

Secrets can be fun

I just found a very interesting blog http://postsecret.blogspot.com. It is a very interseting idea! Well thats all I have to share for now.
ASH

I see a house that looks oddly like a barn... A raised flower bed that will grow pumpkins...

Are psychics real?

I was watching a show with my mom about psychics that help the police solve murders. Before I watched this show I never thought it could be possible, but this show seemed to change my mind. The more I watched the more convinced I became about the supernatural insight.

I guess it could be possible...Maybe the visions are from God to help us... Would you consider it a dark art or good art? It's hard to believe people because there are a lot of frauds; people wanting to get their five minutes of fame or to earn a quick buck. And most of the time I don't like to believe things that aren't backed up by Scientific Data, but on the other hand there are many things that I do believe in that can't necessarily be backed up by Data: God.

In my psychology class we watched a movie about scientific experiments involving psychics. I believe that 90% of their predictions were true. What if it's all coincidental? Seems hard to believe. I do know one thing I would like to have the insight, but only when I wanted to use it.

Farewell, until we meet again

I think I'll move on to the Lord of the Rings!

Tear...

I'm finished with Harry Potter 1-5. Now I'm going through withdraw (which is very pathetic) and I'm counting the days until the next book comes out. I put some much time aside so that I could read, and now that I'm done I don't know what to do with my time. If you go to Harry Potter prisoner of Azkaban.com then you can see a trailer for the new movie, which comes out in November. You can't see much, but what I can make out is that the boys have grown up and they are very Hott. Is it a date??

Well I have to go I'm cleaning and babysitting. I feel like a mother!

Well Love Ya! Buh~bye

The Angry Booger's CD is awesome!

Lately I've been stressed due to never ending babysitting. I love all of the babies to death, I just can't help but get sick of them after seeing them day in and day out. This week I had a small break and I only saw them three days instead of five. It was a much needed and deserved break.

This weekend Sarah and I are going to the Tenton garage sales and then to the Cheesecake factory. Yumm! And while I'm on the subject of entertainment: I've been obsessed with reading the Harry Potter collection and I've been dying to go to the movies and see Star Wars or Something else good. Last Thursday's when I started the Harry Potter books and now I'm half way through the fourth book. They are soo good!

Well I'm very tired thinking of taking a nap. Lov ya

It's FRIDAY THE 13TH!

Anything bad happen to you?

Fine then don't read this!

Right now it's storming outside! I love storms. They seem to cleanse the soul. I wish I could go outside right now; I would lay down in the grass and let the cool rain hit my skin, watch the sky dance with lightning, and listen to the powerful thunder, if only I could do this without risking my safety.

I was getting ready to take a shower and call my mom, but then I remembered the warnings I always heard from my Aunt. Isn' t it funny all the myths and precautions that surround storms? Like stay off the phone or don't take a shower during a thunderstorm because you might get electrocuted. I wonder what the chances are that you can get struck by lightning while taking a shower or talking on the phone? Prolly (like my gangsta talk?) one in a million.

I started out wanting to say something, but I got distracted and forgot what. Hmmm...

Oh I remember I was going to tell you about my day. Last night I spent the night with Joanie and she bought me supper. This morning I woke up and cut her grass. It was horrible. I mow her lawn often, it usually takes an hour and a half, but today it took me two and a half hours. I filled up two of her "Weight limit of 200 pounds" trash cans. Now thats a lot of clippings! How can anyone let their grass get that long?

After I left her house I went to the bank, took a rented movie back, got a new movie, Hotel Rawanda, and went home. I decided that I should cut my grass since I was already dirty. I got 3/4 of the way done and it started to storm, and I had been planning on doing "the works" weed-eating, edging, and blowing the sidewalks. Guess my dad's going to miss out on "the works".

Now I'm inside alone writting in my blog and watching my idiot neighbor through my window. He is standing in his driveway looking up at the storm. He is mesmerized. Now he is walking towards the basketball hoop. Hint: Standing next to long metal objects during a storm is not smart. I've noticed that his sister and a friend are in the backyard dancing in the rain with umbrellas. The poor misguided children of today. They must be suicidal. Oh and while I'm on the subject of my stupid neighbors... My neighbor, Jay the one who was mesmerized, stole money from my purse. That same night my brother got him to confess and he gave it back to me. I've never stolen money, but I'm assuming it would be hard to admit that you stole something and then give it back, so I wasn't furrious just mad.

Well I've written a lot, so Good Bye! I Love You! :)(:

I've got toe jam, do you have any crackers?

Today I met with the Assistant Library Director for an interview. He seems very nice. If I get the job I would start at 8 hours/week and get paid $5.15/hour. Thats not much money, but during the "down times" I'm allowed to work on homework and lets face it there's not much activity in a Library during the summer.

Monday I start my summer math class. I was going to drop it, but what else do I have to do during the summer besides sleep and babysit?

Well thats all I have to say for now! talk at ya later!

Stupid Humanity! Stupid internet!

I'm finally done with my exams. I think I did OK on most of them.

I did get my Oral History Project back and I received a 95%. Which is awesome! In the project I was suppose to interview someone that had experienced a lot of history. I choose to interview my Grandma, but I never really did the interview. I new most of her stories and if I didn't I made something up. That seems really bad, well...it is really bad. I feel really horrible for doind it, but if I knew that I could and get away with it then I was going to do it. I guess you can call me a slacker. This paragraph has turned into my confession, although it's not outloud it did take some of the weight off my heart. I promise to never do it again!

I really miss hanging out with you. hope to see you soon!

(you didn't know this, but I have written this blog before; lets just say, "Internet Explorer has incountered a problem and needs to close. Sorry for any inconviences.")

Later

One Down and Three To Go

I took my Music Exam today! It started out well but when I got to the third page (which was fill in the blank) I was stumped. The whole time I was looking through the test trying to find words that sounded good in the blank, I was thinking to myself "This is straight from our study Guide I just know it is". And you should know that I lost my study Guide. I hope I did OK on the rest of it. Well I have to go. I've got to finish studying for my history exam tomarrow. Luv ya!

Would you like fries with that?

I went through a drive thru yesterday, because I was thirsty. I pulled up to the couner and said, "Can I have a Diet Coke" The employee, who was overweight, in his thirties, and had a skin head, said, " Sure". He walked infront of my car got my pop and came back "That will be $1.25" I reached into my purse got the money and when I looked up the employee he was staring at me and had his arm outstreched handing me a piece of paper. I figured it was a receipt and jammed it into my purse. While he was handing my change back he said "aren't you going to look at it?" I gave him a confused look. "It's my phone number give me a call sometime...you don' t have to if you don't want to." I smiled very big, so he wouldn't be dissapointed (and I was partly amused because this is my first phone number) I said, "you have agreat night" and pulled away slowly. Yelling behind me he said "You too, honey."

He was a really nice guy, and if it weren't for him working in a drive-thru I would have liked the phone number more. At least I know that there are guys out there that think I'm cute, even if they aren't that great looking.

Why does everyone in my family write all over the mouse pad?

I haven't had much time to post lately...probley because it's the last week of classes and all my profs have big assignments due, so as you can imagine I have lots of positive things to say.

Today I've been in an 'I hate myself' mood. I'm not sure why. Freud would say "Deep in your psychie you are hating yourself because you have surpressed feelings to sleep with your mom... and you also wish you had a penis.' I think the real reason I'm feeling this way is because I'm PMSing. One minute I'm crying and the next minute I want to pound someone's head in (Ben or Lauren) and the next minute I'm blaming myself for everything.

I have a weight on my chest and I need to get it off; I have turned into a compulsive lier. There I said it! Again I'm not sure why, but I think it is because of Misty, but who knows maybe I'm lying to myself to blame someone other than me. When I lie it is usually to her because she calls every other day and wants to hang out. I always lie and tell her I'm busy (which isn't a total lie because most of the time I'm busy with procrastinating on homework). I also lie to some of the boys at school to make myself look "cooler" and the only other time I lie is to my parents when I don't want to get into trouble. Man I suck! To Do List: Quit lying.

The mouse pad looked fine before they wrote phone numbers, I love Nicholas:), Lauren Michelle, and misshapen stars. What did the Sponge Bob Square Pants mouse pad do to deserve his horrible end?

Well since I have talked about so many happy things I better go.

Wow! that long?

You Will Die at Age 73

73 You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

I have my freak on!

You Are 45% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

I Like the Name of My Punk Rock Band

Ashley Nicole Clay's Aliases

Your movie star name: Chips Floyd

Your fashion designer name is Ashley Rome

Your socialite name is Ash-hole Dayton

Your fly girl / guy name is A Cla

Your detective name is Cat Valley View

Your barfly name is Dots Cosmo

Your soap opera name is Nicole Franklin Trenton

Your rock star name is Baby Ruth Spaceship

Your star wars name is Ashsam Clabra

Your punk rock band name is The Angry Booger

The Amazing Meganame Generator

ANWAR WAS VOTED OFF!

My sister asked me to take her to Findlay this weekend. We are going to leave on Friday around 12:30 stay the night in a motel and then come home on Saturday night. I think it will be fun! A miniture "road trip". I get along well with laurena and Nick, so hopefully I wont feel like a third wheel. I'm not sure what I'm suppose to do about getting a room. Do you need a credit card? Do you have to be a certain age? Will they let me use my moms credit card? Well I guess I better figure these questions out. On Sunday I'n suppose to hang with Misty then I have to dye Linda's hair. Well I have to start cleaning the house. Until next time.

Ugh!

I didn't do to well on my Praxis testing. I missed the math by one point and the reading by 5 points. That sucks. Now I won't be able to get into the cohort and I will have to wait untill next time. I guess this means that I don't need to turn in my application or take my essay tomarrow. Well I have to finish my mountain of homework.

Were you this stressed?

Today I'm trying to get all of my work done for school. I have to sign up for the praxis(and I don't know how), I have to write an essay, and I have to send an application for the Cohort. Now thats stressful. I feel so lost and I can't wait to get that ahh! shoulders relaxing moment. I'm so glad I don't have a job right now, because that would be just soo much more stressful. Well I have to do some homework. Love ya!

I started reading the Di Vinci Code. I'm not very far in it but so far it's good. Sometimes it bothers me when they speak in French; I don't know what they are saying and I want to know. While I'm on the subject of books I finished Goddess of Light. This is the first book that I've read that I actually shed a tear. I was kinda upset about the ending, but in all the book was great. I was hoping that Pamela would change her mind and go with the God of Light, but I guess the book never came to that. I did like how they both drank from the river knowing that they were soul mates and they would find each other again.

Today is an awesome day! I was reading outside and I could feel the warmth of the sun on the back of my legs. I was so comfortable that I fell asleep. Now I'm suppose to be helping with supper but who cares.

fAdios, Amiga!

Can you believe that lauren had the nerve to leave me a "to-do list"

My Sister is in Florida. She and Abby went to spend spring Break with Abby's Aunt (whom I have never heard of). I'm kinda Jealous, but I wouldn't have been if the weather would have stayed nice...snow in April has anyone heard of that? Ok back to the topic I'm also nervous. Lauren and Abby are both pretty girls and I'm worried about their safety and they do give into peer pressure. There is just so many bad things that can happen plus it didn't help that I watched 60 minutes, it was all about Spring Break Dangers. Well all I can do is have trust in my sister to keep herself safe.

Today I'm feeling less stressed than lately. Friday I had a big paper due, so I started it on Wednesday. I also had to present with a group in English class; thats not too bad but what stresssed me was the fact that the group project is 45% of our grade. Back to my group: I had this really hot guy in my group. He is really nice and still talks to me now that we are done with the project. He is a Christian, he is hottt, and he is smart,but he is also in a serious relaionship. Well, now that I think about it my desk is surrounded by boys and I talk to all of them. how cool is that!

College is sooo much better thatn High School. In High School there are the popular people, the geeks, the wanabes, and the normal people. I liked to consider myself in the normal people group. Most of the time these groups or "clicks" won't talk to any of the other clicks, but in college little remains of the clicks. Which is awesome you get to know so many more people.

Well I got to go. My mom is yelling at me "I thought when you quit your job you would help around the house more, so I would have more free time." The nerve of that women. I have no tiem to myself as it is. I can barely get time to read my book or get on the computer.

Until we meet again

Aaachooo

God bless me!

"You've got it so Flaunt it"

I'm sure everyone has delt with this kind of person! I have a friend named Misty. Misty is one of those people that always want you to do stuff and you really don't want to. She is very outspoken and talks to everyone, and most of the time she ends up embarrassing me.

When we where still in High School I went with her to met this guy she had met on the internet. I didn't want to go but she could always talk me into anything. we were suppose to meet this guy at the mall. When we got there I was so scared, she had never met this person and whose to say that he isn't a psycho killer, she finally found him and he wanted us to get in his car and go get something to eat. Not thinking I did, but as soon as I got in the car and we started moving I thought oh my god what if he is a killer, a rapist, I knew I should have listened to my mom..."Never get into cars with strangers!", but I didn't. I finally had the nerve to tell him that I needed to go back to my car, because my mom wanted me to pick up my brother at a friends. We where allready out of the mall parking lot and on our way to a resturant and he kept asking me if I was sure I needed to go. At this point I'm very scared and I looked Misty in the eyes and told her that I needed to go back to my car! He finally turned around and took us back to my car. When we got out and he left I started to get so angry at her. How could I let someone, a friend, make dicisions for me? I never realized how weak I was until that day when I fell to peer pressure. I told Misty never to talk to that guy again especially alone. I never really knew if he was good or bad but I just had a feeling and people always say trust your gut.

There was this other time that I went with her to meet this guy she had met on the internet. She had already met him once and they where going to go out, so I figured that it would be ok to go with her, and Misty can talk me into anything. Seth lives in Middletown, so we drove to his house and when we got there he wasn't that bad looking. He led us to his room, which was full of guitar equipment, and we all sat on his bed and talked for a while. After talking he turned the tv on and we started watching The Simpsons (well I was). The room was really quite and I had moved to the floor infront of the bed, Misty and Seth stayed on the bed and they where out of my sight. While watching tv I saw the reflection of them, they where making out and he was fondling her breast. I was very uncomfortable ( I also made a mental note to not look back, eww) After sitting there for a few more minutes I noticed that they where writing things on each others hands. Sexual notes or not I wanted to leave I felt like a third wheel. we finally left, but not soon enough.

During High School I can say that Misty was a bit wild, but she has now settled down and is a lot more fun to be around.

Well I'm off to go see Misty( and hopefully we wont be abducted by a strange Indian man that smokes)

"He's that mysterious man that all the girls want"

Last night I had a scary dream! It was one of those dreams you can't remember, but I do remember waking up multiple times trying to catch my breath ( I always hold my breath when I have a nightmare). Everytime I woke up my skin was crawling, my head was hurting, and all I wanted to do was go back to sleep and see how my dream ended. It was prety awesome!

I'm excited about scheduling my new classes! I guess you can offically call me a freak. I guess in my subconscious mind I want to schedule new classes because then the classes I'm in currently will be done! I hate the classes I have right now!

OK! After reading through what I just wrote every other word is I. Can we say conceited?

After reading your blog (yes you Sarah...your the only one that reads this) I was sad when you mentioned that you wanted to live on campus. If you ever moved away... lets not even think about it. Hey I'm listening to VH1 while typing and they started to play Beethoven's fifth, the funktifid version fo course.

Well see you tomarrow!

A THOUGHT FROM KAITLYNN

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I like Change

Like my new background? Thanks Sarah for helping me with the background and my picture.

Today is my last day of Spring Break! I'm a little depressed because I put off all of my homework until now. I'm such a procrastinator. Spring Break wasn't all I thought it would be I guess it's because I get out of school early and I have most of the day to myself anyways. I had somethings I wanted to get accomplished, but that didn't happen.

Well I have to write a 4-5 page paper on Slums. Isn't that a lovely way to end Spring Break!*Buh~Bye*

Start your day with OJ trust me it's the only way

Just imagine a College student on Spring Braek and know where to go! I guess the rest will be ok, but I sure would like to go to Florida or somewhere warm. The weather here really sucks!

Like always, I woke up to the sound of my brothers pounding feet on the floor above me and today he added a nice touch of yelling. That imbecile! I have to go to school today, my brother woke me up before I needed to be up, and I can't go back to sleep... I was just thinking this is going to be a great day! The only thing that can turn this day around is if I have some fun with Sarah.

I saw the advertisment for the Ring Two. It looks pretty awesome. Scary movies are never really awesome, but people go and see them just in the slight chance they might get scared to death.

Well I need to get ready for School. Later

Catching up!!

Well I haven't really posted in a while, so there are a few life changing events to tell you.

First of all I quit Krogers. I am free! The thing that made me snap was my manager(who I dislike) kept scheduling me for 30-35 hours a week. I was trying to work 35 hours a week and go to college full time. That was way to stressful! On my last day my manager, knowing I quit because of the long hours, told me that she enjoyed working with me and that if I ever needed a job she would hire me. This made me a little upset.

Second I got my nose pierced. It was a spur of the moment thing. Sarah and I went to a tatoo place in Middletown called Blue Byrd. The lady that pierced my nose was very nice. It didn't hurt too bad, but it bled allover. If I would have known it would bleed that much I would have thought twice(but still get pierced). It was awesome and I would do it again. Did I mention that my mom and dad where out of town and had no idea. Well when they got back my mom was kinda angry, but she got over it and my dad didn't say much.

Well I have to go for now! Love you!

All the little stuff in the middle

Isn't it weird to see a friend that you haven't seen for a long time. Well this happened to me last week and ever since that day I have felt old and sad. Leah and I where best friends throughout high school. We talked about everything and knew everything about each other. Thats what makes such good friends. you can tell them everything and trust that they wont tell or judge you harshly. The day I graduated I was sad because I knew I would never see my friends and by chance I saw them it wouldn't be the same. A great friend once wrote "Maybe nothing exciting happened since the last time you saw them, but your life happened. You changed everyday, and so did they, and you did not change together."(Sarah Jo) This is exactly what happens when you haven't seen a friend for a long time...well thats what happened to me. When I saw Leah last week there was that weird silence that we never had before. The only thing you have in common is the past. Who wants to talk about the past? You can "catch-up" but that seems like your trying to make conversation and you never had to make conversation before.

Eat, Sleep, Homework, Work, Eat, Sleep...

I'm starting to feel the pressure of working and college at the same time. This week I have a quiz in History 112 and 122, a music quiz, and a four page English paper due on friday. Did I mention how stressed I am? At least this week I only have to work 24 hours (which is way more than I want). This weekend when all of this is said and done I'm going to spend money on myself! Maybe I will go to the movies? I've been wanting to see Meet the Fockers or White noise, but I will see anything. Well I have tons of homework and studying.

Finally...

I'm not a firm believer in cleaning my room; making my bed everyday, putting dirty clothes in the hamper, or putting things up as I get them out just doesn't appeal to me. The mess just grows bigger and bigger. I usually clean after my mom sees the mess and threatens me. Most of the time she says, "I'm going to make you pay rent" or "Didn't I raise you better... I remember when your room was the cleanest of anyones." My mom only comes downstairs once every two weeks, so you can just imagine how big of a mess I have to clean up. My closet is usually bare (most of my clothes are dirty laying on the floor), I cannot find anything under the clutter of papers on my desk, and my dresser is usually covered in dust ( for some reason the basement is very dusty). I know your asking yourself how someone could live in this condition. Well it is very easy after you have lived in these conditions for at least two months and you have become use to it.

Well the reason I'm telling this to you is because I had to clean this mess today. I spent nearly three hours in my bedroom cleaning. I even went to the lengths of cleaning out my "junk" drawer and to clean out my closet. If I haden't used it in the past two months I threw it away (mostly lotions and candles). I'm very happy with myself and the outcome of my room.

I promise this time I will keep it clean... haha! yeah right!

Ashes

My New Years Resolution... though I have allergies

In the year 2005 I resolve to: Spend more time snuggling puppies. Get your resolution here

Do you need socks with these shoes?

I'm all for it