Never Been Kissed

Well, I'm gettin kinda concerned for ya. You seem to have a cyber stalker. Just keep a safe set of mind and stay smart. And if you do ever want to meet I will go with you!

This week has been as productive as all the weeks before, so in reality I haven't completed any of my goals. I have been thinking a lot about never having a boyfriend. My heart yearns to love another, but I do not believe I will anytime soon. Do you remember when you would write in a journal to your future husband? I always thought that was a good idea; you wouldn't be able to forget to tell him anything.

The ever nearer thought of school has already started to get me down. I just hate it, but I love it at the same time. I think it will be better this year than last because last year I was taking classes that had nothing to do with my chosen major.

Well I have to clean my house and then i'm going to Misty's because she is leaving for Florida Wed, so I will write at ya later.

From Yonder Window...

So last night I stayed up until 5 in the morning sitting around a campfire with my brother and his friends. I know this doesn't sound very appealing, but it actually was. I learned a lot about my brother and his friends; good and bad.

This week I've been in a sewing mood. I made a hobo bag that is made with a bright orange swirly fabric. It is very big, has a pocket, and I sewed a flower from buttons on the front. The next thing I made was another hobo bag! It is cordoroy and has buttons allover it. they are cute!

Well I'm done for now, so Write at ya later.

Check Please!

I have found my keys that have been missing for two days. It is such a relief. I hate the feeling I get when I lose something and you've looked everywhere to find it, and there's nothing else you can do. It's like your mind and heart fighting: Heart "they have to be somewhere" mind "you've look everywhere, so you should just give up and except defeat." I'm glad I found them.

I haven't written in a while and to be honest it was kinda nice; I just never have anything to talk about and sometimes I'm just to lazy to think about something to write.

Well I have to go for now I'm helping my mom babysit. Ronnie seems very interesting.

I have decided two things...

First: After I cooled off and reread what I wrote about the kids I felt ashamed and very cruel. I know that I wrote that entry in the heat of anger, and I also know that I cannot delete it because it is still "me" and my thoughts. From now on I'm going to cool off before I write then "maybe" I will think twice before I write anything that is cruel. Afterall they are kids and they are looking to me for some guidance.

Second: After 200 grueling pages of LOTR I have decided to stop reading it. It's not that it's a bad book it's just boring. I still want to know what happens but at the same time I don't want to waste my valuable time reading it either. Maybe when I get old as dirt and have a boring life I will re-read it and it may have a different effect on me.

I highlighted my hair! Harry Potter comes out Saturday! That's all for know folks!

'Ashely she took my shoes, and wont give them back...I want them back (sniffles) they are mine(crying)

These past few weeks I have just been so sick of children. I babysit two times a week and my mom babysits two times a week, so the kids are at our house the whole week and most of the time there here on the weekends. I'm mostly annoyed by the little things that they do, and not totally be their presence.

The number one reason I'm not too fond of kids right now is becase it is the summer and I want to be able to go out and have fun, but if I want to do this I have to drag around two kids. I feel like a grown adult with two children; a Soccer Mom.

I also hate the amount of money I get paid; $15 dollars a day for two kids and $10 for one kid, and most of the time I have them from 6:30 AM to 6:00 PM. Their mother is at work making at least $20/hour, so I feel that I should at least get paid what she does in one hour. Right? If it wasn't for me she would have to hire a babysitter that would want $50/ day. I'm not out to cause problems for Joanie and her reliable babysitters, so I never say anything. If I ever did get a raise I would feel horrible for taking the money. So I guess I will let her keep walking all over me.

Another thing I hate is that the kids don't listen.When they first get to the house they don't listen to me, it takes them about two hours to realize that I'm not their mother and they have to listen to me. Throughout the day Kaitlynn doesn't listen at all, but she is still young and testing her boundries. When they do start to listen the day starts to become smoother.

The last little complaint I have is how loud they are. They definatly take after their mother.

Most of the time I'm strict with them but that's the way I was brought up and that's the way I will bring my kids up. I believe that most children these days haven't had the proper guidence, which is mostly due to Parents wanting to be friends with their children, and that is a no! no! because then your kids will walk allover you with no respect.

Well i'm done venting L8R

There's not much to talk about really...

I did start to read LOTR, and so far I'm enjoying it. The movies are way different from the books. The books have a lot more details and events, which is normal when a book is turned into a movie. I always hate seeing a movie before reading a book because you know what's going to happen, and I would rather read the book and then see the movie.

I have decided not to get my hair permed but instead cut short. That will be a big change for me, most of the time my hair is very long.

Well since nothing eventful has happened in the past few weeks I'm done talking for now. Later!

I like Screamers

I've been listening to a lot of music lately. I like all genres but my favorites are punk and rock. Rock gets your heart pumping and you can't help but knock your head. When I'm in the car listening to rock I will look down at the speed-o-meter and I'll be so caught up in the music that I'll be going fifteen over. I like punk because of the in-your-face attitude and the screaming. My sis is all for punk and she goes to see a lot of local bands preform. She got to meet Hawthorne Heights before they were noticed. Thats pretty cool.

Today I'm going to go out with my friends. I haven't seen Michelle x2 in so long, well since graduation, and I believe theirs going to be that weird ackward silence. I hate that because when we were still in school we could talk for hours about anything, but now that you haven't seen them in forever theres nothing to talk about. You would think that it would be the opposite.

I think my boobs have grown, which is very weird I thought I was done maturing since I am 19.

"June 1st we are the farthest from the sun"

I have a few rules that I follow while getting dressed like: No brown and black together, try and match shoes with shirt for balance, certain necklaces and earrings are to be worn with certain hairstyles and shirts, and when wearing light colored shirts have a matching bra. This morning I got dressed and didn't realize it but broke two of my rules. I was wearing brown and black at the same time and I had a yellow bra on with a light pink shirt.

Well it's about time for me to leave so I'll talk at ya later.

Along with summer comes a time on which nothing happens, and hence I have nothing to talk (write) about. This is very sad.

The summer has defiantly turned me into a movie junkie. On part because I have no job, and have no other way to spend my time. I've been spending ten dollars a week on renting movies Via PPV of blockbuster. I am dying to go to the movies! I want to see War of the Worlds, Madagascar, Star Wars, Sisterhood of the traveling Pants, and the new scary movie Walking Dead, or something of that sort.

I did start to get things done that have been on my check list. I opened a checking account, fixed my debit card, and went shopping.

Well I'm all out. See ya later.

I feel all grown up

This week I'm house sitting for my Aunt. It feels very odd to be in a huge house all by myself. At first I was freaked out because she has animals that make noises that I'm not expecting to hear. When it was time to go to bed I checked that all the doors were locked multiple times. I kept thinking to myself "Now I know Why Joanie was so paranoid". I have decided if I ever have to live alone that I'm going to get a cat of a small dog that will keep me company.

My cousin, Emilie, and Lauren have coerced me into swimming, so I have to go for now.

Secrets can be fun

I just found a very interesting blog http://postsecret.blogspot.com. It is a very interseting idea! Well thats all I have to share for now.
ASH

I see a house that looks oddly like a barn... A raised flower bed that will grow pumpkins...

Are psychics real?

I was watching a show with my mom about psychics that help the police solve murders. Before I watched this show I never thought it could be possible, but this show seemed to change my mind. The more I watched the more convinced I became about the supernatural insight.

I guess it could be possible...Maybe the visions are from God to help us... Would you consider it a dark art or good art? It's hard to believe people because there are a lot of frauds; people wanting to get their five minutes of fame or to earn a quick buck. And most of the time I don't like to believe things that aren't backed up by Scientific Data, but on the other hand there are many things that I do believe in that can't necessarily be backed up by Data: God.

In my psychology class we watched a movie about scientific experiments involving psychics. I believe that 90% of their predictions were true. What if it's all coincidental? Seems hard to believe. I do know one thing I would like to have the insight, but only when I wanted to use it.

Farewell, until we meet again

I think I'll move on to the Lord of the Rings!

Tear...

I'm finished with Harry Potter 1-5. Now I'm going through withdraw (which is very pathetic) and I'm counting the days until the next book comes out. I put some much time aside so that I could read, and now that I'm done I don't know what to do with my time. If you go to Harry Potter prisoner of Azkaban.com then you can see a trailer for the new movie, which comes out in November. You can't see much, but what I can make out is that the boys have grown up and they are very Hott. Is it a date??

Well I have to go I'm cleaning and babysitting. I feel like a mother!

Well Love Ya! Buh~bye

The Angry Booger's CD is awesome!

Lately I've been stressed due to never ending babysitting. I love all of the babies to death, I just can't help but get sick of them after seeing them day in and day out. This week I had a small break and I only saw them three days instead of five. It was a much needed and deserved break.

This weekend Sarah and I are going to the Tenton garage sales and then to the Cheesecake factory. Yumm! And while I'm on the subject of entertainment: I've been obsessed with reading the Harry Potter collection and I've been dying to go to the movies and see Star Wars or Something else good. Last Thursday's when I started the Harry Potter books and now I'm half way through the fourth book. They are soo good!

Well I'm very tired thinking of taking a nap. Lov ya

It's FRIDAY THE 13TH!

Anything bad happen to you?

Fine then don't read this!

Right now it's storming outside! I love storms. They seem to cleanse the soul. I wish I could go outside right now; I would lay down in the grass and let the cool rain hit my skin, watch the sky dance with lightning, and listen to the powerful thunder, if only I could do this without risking my safety.

I was getting ready to take a shower and call my mom, but then I remembered the warnings I always heard from my Aunt. Isn' t it funny all the myths and precautions that surround storms? Like stay off the phone or don't take a shower during a thunderstorm because you might get electrocuted. I wonder what the chances are that you can get struck by lightning while taking a shower or talking on the phone? Prolly (like my gangsta talk?) one in a million.

I started out wanting to say something, but I got distracted and forgot what. Hmmm...

Oh I remember I was going to tell you about my day. Last night I spent the night with Joanie and she bought me supper. This morning I woke up and cut her grass. It was horrible. I mow her lawn often, it usually takes an hour and a half, but today it took me two and a half hours. I filled up two of her "Weight limit of 200 pounds" trash cans. Now thats a lot of clippings! How can anyone let their grass get that long?

After I left her house I went to the bank, took a rented movie back, got a new movie, Hotel Rawanda, and went home. I decided that I should cut my grass since I was already dirty. I got 3/4 of the way done and it started to storm, and I had been planning on doing "the works" weed-eating, edging, and blowing the sidewalks. Guess my dad's going to miss out on "the works".

Now I'm inside alone writting in my blog and watching my idiot neighbor through my window. He is standing in his driveway looking up at the storm. He is mesmerized. Now he is walking towards the basketball hoop. Hint: Standing next to long metal objects during a storm is not smart. I've noticed that his sister and a friend are in the backyard dancing in the rain with umbrellas. The poor misguided children of today. They must be suicidal. Oh and while I'm on the subject of my stupid neighbors... My neighbor, Jay the one who was mesmerized, stole money from my purse. That same night my brother got him to confess and he gave it back to me. I've never stolen money, but I'm assuming it would be hard to admit that you stole something and then give it back, so I wasn't furrious just mad.

Well I've written a lot, so Good Bye! I Love You! :)(:

I've got toe jam, do you have any crackers?

Today I met with the Assistant Library Director for an interview. He seems very nice. If I get the job I would start at 8 hours/week and get paid $5.15/hour. Thats not much money, but during the "down times" I'm allowed to work on homework and lets face it there's not much activity in a Library during the summer.

Monday I start my summer math class. I was going to drop it, but what else do I have to do during the summer besides sleep and babysit?

Well thats all I have to say for now! talk at ya later!

Stupid Humanity! Stupid internet!

I'm finally done with my exams. I think I did OK on most of them.

I did get my Oral History Project back and I received a 95%. Which is awesome! In the project I was suppose to interview someone that had experienced a lot of history. I choose to interview my Grandma, but I never really did the interview. I new most of her stories and if I didn't I made something up. That seems really bad, well...it is really bad. I feel really horrible for doind it, but if I knew that I could and get away with it then I was going to do it. I guess you can call me a slacker. This paragraph has turned into my confession, although it's not outloud it did take some of the weight off my heart. I promise to never do it again!

I really miss hanging out with you. hope to see you soon!

(you didn't know this, but I have written this blog before; lets just say, "Internet Explorer has incountered a problem and needs to close. Sorry for any inconviences.")

Later

One Down and Three To Go

I took my Music Exam today! It started out well but when I got to the third page (which was fill in the blank) I was stumped. The whole time I was looking through the test trying to find words that sounded good in the blank, I was thinking to myself "This is straight from our study Guide I just know it is". And you should know that I lost my study Guide. I hope I did OK on the rest of it. Well I have to go. I've got to finish studying for my history exam tomarrow. Luv ya!

Would you like fries with that?

I went through a drive thru yesterday, because I was thirsty. I pulled up to the couner and said, "Can I have a Diet Coke" The employee, who was overweight, in his thirties, and had a skin head, said, " Sure". He walked infront of my car got my pop and came back "That will be $1.25" I reached into my purse got the money and when I looked up the employee he was staring at me and had his arm outstreched handing me a piece of paper. I figured it was a receipt and jammed it into my purse. While he was handing my change back he said "aren't you going to look at it?" I gave him a confused look. "It's my phone number give me a call sometime...you don' t have to if you don't want to." I smiled very big, so he wouldn't be dissapointed (and I was partly amused because this is my first phone number) I said, "you have agreat night" and pulled away slowly. Yelling behind me he said "You too, honey."

He was a really nice guy, and if it weren't for him working in a drive-thru I would have liked the phone number more. At least I know that there are guys out there that think I'm cute, even if they aren't that great looking.