Why does everyone in my family write all over the mouse pad?

I haven't had much time to post lately...probley because it's the last week of classes and all my profs have big assignments due, so as you can imagine I have lots of positive things to say.

Today I've been in an 'I hate myself' mood. I'm not sure why. Freud would say "Deep in your psychie you are hating yourself because you have surpressed feelings to sleep with your mom... and you also wish you had a penis.' I think the real reason I'm feeling this way is because I'm PMSing. One minute I'm crying and the next minute I want to pound someone's head in (Ben or Lauren) and the next minute I'm blaming myself for everything.

I have a weight on my chest and I need to get it off; I have turned into a compulsive lier. There I said it! Again I'm not sure why, but I think it is because of Misty, but who knows maybe I'm lying to myself to blame someone other than me. When I lie it is usually to her because she calls every other day and wants to hang out. I always lie and tell her I'm busy (which isn't a total lie because most of the time I'm busy with procrastinating on homework). I also lie to some of the boys at school to make myself look "cooler" and the only other time I lie is to my parents when I don't want to get into trouble. Man I suck! To Do List: Quit lying.

The mouse pad looked fine before they wrote phone numbers, I love Nicholas:), Lauren Michelle, and misshapen stars. What did the Sponge Bob Square Pants mouse pad do to deserve his horrible end?

Well since I have talked about so many happy things I better go.

Wow! that long?

You Will Die at Age 73

73 You're pretty average when it comes to how you live... And how you'll die as well.

What Age Will You Die?

I have my freak on!

You Are 45% Normal (Somewhat Normal)

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

I Like the Name of My Punk Rock Band

Ashley Nicole Clay's Aliases

Your movie star name: Chips Floyd

Your fashion designer name is Ashley Rome

Your socialite name is Ash-hole Dayton

Your fly girl / guy name is A Cla

Your detective name is Cat Valley View

Your barfly name is Dots Cosmo

Your soap opera name is Nicole Franklin Trenton

Your rock star name is Baby Ruth Spaceship

Your star wars name is Ashsam Clabra

Your punk rock band name is The Angry Booger

The Amazing Meganame Generator

ANWAR WAS VOTED OFF!

My sister asked me to take her to Findlay this weekend. We are going to leave on Friday around 12:30 stay the night in a motel and then come home on Saturday night. I think it will be fun! A miniture "road trip". I get along well with laurena and Nick, so hopefully I wont feel like a third wheel. I'm not sure what I'm suppose to do about getting a room. Do you need a credit card? Do you have to be a certain age? Will they let me use my moms credit card? Well I guess I better figure these questions out. On Sunday I'n suppose to hang with Misty then I have to dye Linda's hair. Well I have to start cleaning the house. Until next time.

Ugh!

I didn't do to well on my Praxis testing. I missed the math by one point and the reading by 5 points. That sucks. Now I won't be able to get into the cohort and I will have to wait untill next time. I guess this means that I don't need to turn in my application or take my essay tomarrow. Well I have to finish my mountain of homework.

Were you this stressed?

Today I'm trying to get all of my work done for school. I have to sign up for the praxis(and I don't know how), I have to write an essay, and I have to send an application for the Cohort. Now thats stressful. I feel so lost and I can't wait to get that ahh! shoulders relaxing moment. I'm so glad I don't have a job right now, because that would be just soo much more stressful. Well I have to do some homework. Love ya!

I started reading the Di Vinci Code. I'm not very far in it but so far it's good. Sometimes it bothers me when they speak in French; I don't know what they are saying and I want to know. While I'm on the subject of books I finished Goddess of Light. This is the first book that I've read that I actually shed a tear. I was kinda upset about the ending, but in all the book was great. I was hoping that Pamela would change her mind and go with the God of Light, but I guess the book never came to that. I did like how they both drank from the river knowing that they were soul mates and they would find each other again.

Today is an awesome day! I was reading outside and I could feel the warmth of the sun on the back of my legs. I was so comfortable that I fell asleep. Now I'm suppose to be helping with supper but who cares.

fAdios, Amiga!

Can you believe that lauren had the nerve to leave me a "to-do list"

My Sister is in Florida. She and Abby went to spend spring Break with Abby's Aunt (whom I have never heard of). I'm kinda Jealous, but I wouldn't have been if the weather would have stayed nice...snow in April has anyone heard of that? Ok back to the topic I'm also nervous. Lauren and Abby are both pretty girls and I'm worried about their safety and they do give into peer pressure. There is just so many bad things that can happen plus it didn't help that I watched 60 minutes, it was all about Spring Break Dangers. Well all I can do is have trust in my sister to keep herself safe.

Today I'm feeling less stressed than lately. Friday I had a big paper due, so I started it on Wednesday. I also had to present with a group in English class; thats not too bad but what stresssed me was the fact that the group project is 45% of our grade. Back to my group: I had this really hot guy in my group. He is really nice and still talks to me now that we are done with the project. He is a Christian, he is hottt, and he is smart,but he is also in a serious relaionship. Well, now that I think about it my desk is surrounded by boys and I talk to all of them. how cool is that!

College is sooo much better thatn High School. In High School there are the popular people, the geeks, the wanabes, and the normal people. I liked to consider myself in the normal people group. Most of the time these groups or "clicks" won't talk to any of the other clicks, but in college little remains of the clicks. Which is awesome you get to know so many more people.

Well I got to go. My mom is yelling at me "I thought when you quit your job you would help around the house more, so I would have more free time." The nerve of that women. I have no tiem to myself as it is. I can barely get time to read my book or get on the computer.

Until we meet again

Aaachooo

God bless me!

"You've got it so Flaunt it"

I'm sure everyone has delt with this kind of person! I have a friend named Misty. Misty is one of those people that always want you to do stuff and you really don't want to. She is very outspoken and talks to everyone, and most of the time she ends up embarrassing me.

When we where still in High School I went with her to met this guy she had met on the internet. I didn't want to go but she could always talk me into anything. we were suppose to meet this guy at the mall. When we got there I was so scared, she had never met this person and whose to say that he isn't a psycho killer, she finally found him and he wanted us to get in his car and go get something to eat. Not thinking I did, but as soon as I got in the car and we started moving I thought oh my god what if he is a killer, a rapist, I knew I should have listened to my mom..."Never get into cars with strangers!", but I didn't. I finally had the nerve to tell him that I needed to go back to my car, because my mom wanted me to pick up my brother at a friends. We where allready out of the mall parking lot and on our way to a resturant and he kept asking me if I was sure I needed to go. At this point I'm very scared and I looked Misty in the eyes and told her that I needed to go back to my car! He finally turned around and took us back to my car. When we got out and he left I started to get so angry at her. How could I let someone, a friend, make dicisions for me? I never realized how weak I was until that day when I fell to peer pressure. I told Misty never to talk to that guy again especially alone. I never really knew if he was good or bad but I just had a feeling and people always say trust your gut.

There was this other time that I went with her to meet this guy she had met on the internet. She had already met him once and they where going to go out, so I figured that it would be ok to go with her, and Misty can talk me into anything. Seth lives in Middletown, so we drove to his house and when we got there he wasn't that bad looking. He led us to his room, which was full of guitar equipment, and we all sat on his bed and talked for a while. After talking he turned the tv on and we started watching The Simpsons (well I was). The room was really quite and I had moved to the floor infront of the bed, Misty and Seth stayed on the bed and they where out of my sight. While watching tv I saw the reflection of them, they where making out and he was fondling her breast. I was very uncomfortable ( I also made a mental note to not look back, eww) After sitting there for a few more minutes I noticed that they where writing things on each others hands. Sexual notes or not I wanted to leave I felt like a third wheel. we finally left, but not soon enough.

During High School I can say that Misty was a bit wild, but she has now settled down and is a lot more fun to be around.

Well I'm off to go see Misty( and hopefully we wont be abducted by a strange Indian man that smokes)

"He's that mysterious man that all the girls want"

Last night I had a scary dream! It was one of those dreams you can't remember, but I do remember waking up multiple times trying to catch my breath ( I always hold my breath when I have a nightmare). Everytime I woke up my skin was crawling, my head was hurting, and all I wanted to do was go back to sleep and see how my dream ended. It was prety awesome!

I'm excited about scheduling my new classes! I guess you can offically call me a freak. I guess in my subconscious mind I want to schedule new classes because then the classes I'm in currently will be done! I hate the classes I have right now!

OK! After reading through what I just wrote every other word is I. Can we say conceited?

After reading your blog (yes you Sarah...your the only one that reads this) I was sad when you mentioned that you wanted to live on campus. If you ever moved away... lets not even think about it. Hey I'm listening to VH1 while typing and they started to play Beethoven's fifth, the funktifid version fo course.

Well see you tomarrow!

A THOUGHT FROM KAITLYNN

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I like Change

Like my new background? Thanks Sarah for helping me with the background and my picture.

Today is my last day of Spring Break! I'm a little depressed because I put off all of my homework until now. I'm such a procrastinator. Spring Break wasn't all I thought it would be I guess it's because I get out of school early and I have most of the day to myself anyways. I had somethings I wanted to get accomplished, but that didn't happen.

Well I have to write a 4-5 page paper on Slums. Isn't that a lovely way to end Spring Break!*Buh~Bye*

Start your day with OJ trust me it's the only way

Just imagine a College student on Spring Braek and know where to go! I guess the rest will be ok, but I sure would like to go to Florida or somewhere warm. The weather here really sucks!

Like always, I woke up to the sound of my brothers pounding feet on the floor above me and today he added a nice touch of yelling. That imbecile! I have to go to school today, my brother woke me up before I needed to be up, and I can't go back to sleep... I was just thinking this is going to be a great day! The only thing that can turn this day around is if I have some fun with Sarah.

I saw the advertisment for the Ring Two. It looks pretty awesome. Scary movies are never really awesome, but people go and see them just in the slight chance they might get scared to death.

Well I need to get ready for School. Later

Catching up!!

Well I haven't really posted in a while, so there are a few life changing events to tell you.

First of all I quit Krogers. I am free! The thing that made me snap was my manager(who I dislike) kept scheduling me for 30-35 hours a week. I was trying to work 35 hours a week and go to college full time. That was way to stressful! On my last day my manager, knowing I quit because of the long hours, told me that she enjoyed working with me and that if I ever needed a job she would hire me. This made me a little upset.

Second I got my nose pierced. It was a spur of the moment thing. Sarah and I went to a tatoo place in Middletown called Blue Byrd. The lady that pierced my nose was very nice. It didn't hurt too bad, but it bled allover. If I would have known it would bleed that much I would have thought twice(but still get pierced). It was awesome and I would do it again. Did I mention that my mom and dad where out of town and had no idea. Well when they got back my mom was kinda angry, but she got over it and my dad didn't say much.

Well I have to go for now! Love you!

All the little stuff in the middle

Isn't it weird to see a friend that you haven't seen for a long time. Well this happened to me last week and ever since that day I have felt old and sad. Leah and I where best friends throughout high school. We talked about everything and knew everything about each other. Thats what makes such good friends. you can tell them everything and trust that they wont tell or judge you harshly. The day I graduated I was sad because I knew I would never see my friends and by chance I saw them it wouldn't be the same. A great friend once wrote "Maybe nothing exciting happened since the last time you saw them, but your life happened. You changed everyday, and so did they, and you did not change together."(Sarah Jo) This is exactly what happens when you haven't seen a friend for a long time...well thats what happened to me. When I saw Leah last week there was that weird silence that we never had before. The only thing you have in common is the past. Who wants to talk about the past? You can "catch-up" but that seems like your trying to make conversation and you never had to make conversation before.

Eat, Sleep, Homework, Work, Eat, Sleep...

I'm starting to feel the pressure of working and college at the same time. This week I have a quiz in History 112 and 122, a music quiz, and a four page English paper due on friday. Did I mention how stressed I am? At least this week I only have to work 24 hours (which is way more than I want). This weekend when all of this is said and done I'm going to spend money on myself! Maybe I will go to the movies? I've been wanting to see Meet the Fockers or White noise, but I will see anything. Well I have tons of homework and studying.

Finally...

I'm not a firm believer in cleaning my room; making my bed everyday, putting dirty clothes in the hamper, or putting things up as I get them out just doesn't appeal to me. The mess just grows bigger and bigger. I usually clean after my mom sees the mess and threatens me. Most of the time she says, "I'm going to make you pay rent" or "Didn't I raise you better... I remember when your room was the cleanest of anyones." My mom only comes downstairs once every two weeks, so you can just imagine how big of a mess I have to clean up. My closet is usually bare (most of my clothes are dirty laying on the floor), I cannot find anything under the clutter of papers on my desk, and my dresser is usually covered in dust ( for some reason the basement is very dusty). I know your asking yourself how someone could live in this condition. Well it is very easy after you have lived in these conditions for at least two months and you have become use to it.

Well the reason I'm telling this to you is because I had to clean this mess today. I spent nearly three hours in my bedroom cleaning. I even went to the lengths of cleaning out my "junk" drawer and to clean out my closet. If I haden't used it in the past two months I threw it away (mostly lotions and candles). I'm very happy with myself and the outcome of my room.

I promise this time I will keep it clean... haha! yeah right!

Ashes

My New Years Resolution... though I have allergies

In the year 2005 I resolve to: Spend more time snuggling puppies. Get your resolution here